Life is gray.

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One of my many New Year’s resolutions is to write more.  I’m not off to a great start, since this is my first attempt at writing much of anything and it’s the 16th.  But another one of my resolutions is to stop feeling so guilty all the time, so here we go.  


“Life is gray” may seem a morbid theme for my literary beginning, but I think it’s quite fitting.  For much of my life, I have operated under the mentality that life is either Black or White.  Good or Bad.  Right or Wrong.  I have come to the realization: I Live My Life In Extremes.

The problem with these extremes is that I’ve missed the reality of the in-between.  I have lived 23 years and have missed a lot of gray.

And, if you can believe it, there is a actually more beauty in the gray.

I want to escape into this world where I can blur between the lines of thrill and tranquility; dance among love and pain, joy and tears, ecstasy and tragedy; forget the sting of the past and the fear of future; where I can just live; love; laugh; learn.

I’m writing in a blog instead of a journal because, well, I’m lonely here in Frozen North Dakota.  So I’m hoping I can begin to have some dialogue, share my life, learn about yours. 

And if nothing else, maybe it’ll at least help me keep my New Year’s resolution.

2 Responses

  1. Catherine

    Hi Kendra! I miss chatting you with. I should really attempt to make it to Fargo one of the next few weekends and have lunch with you. We’d love to have you visit MM again. We’ve had a few old faces returning this week that haven’t been there in months. I’m certain you’d be welcomed back too!

    I hope you are enjoying the new house. 🙂 Stay warm hon… I love this state but the last last week of freezing weather is starting to make me question my loyalties to it!

    Give the little girl kisses for me! 🙂

  2. I completely understand the “Lonely in Frozen North Dakota”! Sounds like a movie title, doesn’t it? I love your thoughts, Miss Kendra, on life being gray. Good point. Very good point…